ugh so i am really freaking out and i go on holiday tomorrow and it’s ruining it.

basically i was at work yesterday, emptying the bin behind the counter and something like scratched me and i became paranoid it was a needle and freaked out. i searched the bin bag and couldn’t find anything and the chef (such a babe) looked at my arm and told me it was fine, the skin wasn’t broken it was just a scratch.

but yeah i’m freaking out in case it was a needle and i have a huge fear of needles

bleeeeh

i need to forget this and enjoy my holiday

it was just a scratch from a lid or plastic or something in there. i would have noticed a needle.


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"I've always been an anxious/shy person but its gotten really bad this past school year. I had my first anxiety attack last november and a great part of my fight or flight response is that I have an intense urge to pee and I have peed myself twice. I'm a 17 yr old girl and ashamed. I'm constantly fearing the next attack (usually triggered by people telling me off, talking to me disapprovingly, intimidating me) I don't know what to do I just want to be the person that I was last year."

Oh I’m sorry to hear that :( You have nothing to be ashamed of honestly! Have you been to the doctor’s about it? They will probably be able to help with the needing to pee situation anyway. You’ll get to be that person again, you have to be strong, and realise that you need help, whether it be talking to a doctor/therapist. Things will be hard but you can do it!

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"Never chase anyone.
If they’re worth the chase, they’ll be the one running after you."

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"Do not be afraid of the strength of your own mind. Yes it can make you sad, yes it can make you lonely, but it can also make you stronger than you ever thought possible. Use it wisely."

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"Wait not for the person who elicits a shiver when they graze your skin with their fingertips, but for the person who starts a fire in your mind when they look into your eyes."

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"

Sometimes an embrace feels like a chokehold,
and a reassuring voice is just background noise.

Sometimes a caress feels like nails scraping down a blackboard,
and you recoil at the touch, crawling back into the darkness as the need to be alone conquers the company of a thousand kindly souls.

Sometimes you have to say no a hundred times until it feels like yes,
and you have to scrub your hands red raw until the blood screams out of the cracks.

Sometimes you have had to battle an entire army in your mind in the time it takes everyone else to brush their teeth.

Sometimes the people you love hurt you the most without even realising that they have made the mistake of ignoring you when all you craved was the simple words: ‘it will all be alright.’

Sometimes those simple words will never be enough and you ignore the world hoping it will ignore you right back,
and give you five seconds of silence.

Sometimes that silence is far too long and far too loud,
and the empty void is deafening as it swallows you whole.

Sometimes sleep is the only answer,
even when waking up means you will have to do it all over again.

"

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"

The sweet nothings you whispered in my ear
pierced the silence of my mind like the screeching of tyres on red hot tarmac.

The feel of your fingertips as they brushed against my skin
burned like the heat of a thousand suns casting their rays upon the earth.

The taste of your lips against mine
was like my favourite dessert on a hot summer’s day;
fiery yet refreshing.

But the distant dullness in your eyes as they bore into mine
was like loving the ocean as your own
but realising you did not know how to swim.

"

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"He whispered
you shivered.
He laughed
you smiled.
He slept soundly
You counted the rhythm of his breaths.
He draped his arm across your shoulders
you felt safe.
He held your hand
you traced your thumb across his palm.
He kissed your forehead
you leant into his chest.
He wiped away your tears
you stained his sheets with mascara.
He held you close
you cried until there were no more tears left.
He stopped smiling when he saw you
you stopped leaning in for a kiss.
He stopped laughing at your jokes
you stopped bothering.
He stopped playing with your hair
you stopped inviting him round.
He walked twenty yards in front
you hung thirty yards back.
He walked away one day
you never watched him leave."

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What if the sun rose in the west and set in the east,
and all the promises you made me were just threats, hidden, coiled up under the guise of love and caresses?

What if my laughter turned to tears and my tears turned to ice on my cheeks,
and the incandescent flame of desire you lit combusted and crumbled into ash that covered up the remnants of everything you said you would not be?

What if the night turned to day as we spoke for the last time,
and the darkness was the only light I craved?

What if my love turned to hate and I built a thousand walls around my heart
so that no one could tear them down
ever
again?

"

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"They want to save you as you hold on for dear life before you
fall,
shatter,
into a thousand tiny pieces because the echo of what you once were has been swallowed whole by the darkness,
and the light in your eyes has been eclipsed by the darkness of your soul.
But you cannot find a foothold on the rocks of despair and you
slip,
slide,
down into the abyss that is your mind and its haunting crevices that your body cannot escape,
and it’s holding you back and you know you need to crawl out into reality but there’s a voice,
there’s a voice that is the silence of a thousands souls and it’s
screaming,
screeching
at you to succumb to the purgatory of what you were and what you can still become.
So you don’t know what to do when life is pulling at you from all directions.
Do you fight for the life
of love,
and laughter
that you know you have?
Or do you fall fast into the pit of
hatred,
and despair
where your heart feels most at home?"

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"The night is one with the parting of souls, the breaking of hearts and the crushing of dreams.

The day is one with the meetings of lovers, the notes of harmony and the horizons of hope."

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