Woke up today. Felt like shit because anxiety and the face I feel like an outsider in my own family. Then thought fuck it, they don’t really want to hear about my opinions and how passionate I am about things? I’ll let the rest of the world know as well. Then anxiety wise I was like weigh it up? A small print of blood on a shirt not on your skin? The harm of that? Nothing. And I can’t let stuff like this stop me. I have a life to live, moving away from home to look forward to. Living my life without having to try and pretend I’m someone else.
So THE WORST THING POSSIBLE happened to me Sunday.
I was at work and one of the girls I worked with had cut herself and hadn’t realised, anyway she came to say hi and tapped me on the shoulder and got blood on my shirt.
Now this is a massive thing for me because I have a HUGE fear of blood.
Anyway now I’m freaking out because she got blood on me like actually on me. It was only on my shirt and I changed shirts and everything, and ok yes it was on my shirt and not on my skin.
But anyway I’m majorly freaking out because I have this huge fear, it’s like the one major trigger of my anxiety/OCD and this happened and I’m trying not to google and yeah :/
+ Emily Haines (via fuckinq)
I can’t reblog this enough(via suicidal-romantic)
"I am literally on page 73 of your blog and I cannot stop. Your blog is one of 6 that I follow, and it helps me relate, and feel less alone. Thank you for being amazing, and thank you for helping me:)"
Awww thank you! :))
"So I have severe depression and I don't know how to ask for help. I don't want to do self-therapy if that's what you think I'm asking for advice for. I'm asking for advise on how to ask the people you love to save you."
No no it’s ok :) Have you spoken to those you love about this in any way? Maybe just ask if you can sit down and have a chat. You don’t have to explain everything to them right away if that’s too hard. Just take it step by step. Say maybe just to start with that you’ve been feeling down and just want someone to talk to, someone to help. They love you, they will want to help. I know it’s a scary thing to do, but it will honestly help you so much.
"How can I talk about the problems of some one else, when I don't have the motivation and confidence to change myself?"
I think even though you don’t think you have the motivation and confidence to change yourself, I think you really do. We all have that inside of us, the strength to help ourselves you just have to realise that. You can help yourself. And maybe by talking to others, it’ll help give you that extra boost to help yourself.
‘What has happened?’
‘Nothing’s happened. I’ve had a bad week in my head, is all.’"
+ You Have No Idea.. (via thinkmestrange143)
You’re too young to feel this way, too young to have already given up on love. But you have. You’re too young to have had your heart broken so many times. But you have. You’re too young to believe that there is no one out there who will love you for exactly who you are. But you do believe that. No one has ever loved you as much as you love them. No one has ever dropped everything, selfish as it may seem, and come running to you because you said you felt a bit sad that day, despite the fact that you would have run barefoot in the middle of the night if they had uttered so much as a syllable. No one has ever bought you flowers. No one has ever kissed your forehead and told you it would be ok even when you would have kissed the darkest parts of their souls to make sure they were ok. No one has ever uttered those three words: ‘I. Love. You.’
And now you believe that no one ever will.
+ (via hungerasylum)
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!! I love birthdays! Everyone's birthdays! I am glad you were born and are here today!!! :D"
Haha this is awesome thank you! :)
"Happy birthday to you !! *virtual hugs* c: I hope today shall be lovely for you <3"
Thank you :))))
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE
The fucked up thing about my health anxiety is that I’m glad when something new pops up because that means I can stop worrying about the old thing.
"Please post more I love this blog x"
Sorry I haven’t been posting much, been having a busy time with work and university! X